kerrykaulitz

“I doubt you’ve got any stuff with you have you?” Bill asked me when we got into the room. We stuck with the original plan because I felt awkward about sharing with James and Tom didn’t want Ashley in his room anyway.

“What do you mean by stuff?”

“Stuff to change into in the morning or your toothbrush or make-up wipes or whatever.”

“Good point, nope I haven’t”

“I can give you a make-up wipe or two but I can’t give you any knickers I’m afraid!” He winked at me. I blushed. “Oh, in the morning you could always go and ask Tom and see if any of his girls have left them in his room and you can use those. But he might want them back.”

“That’s disgusting!” I gave him one of my “are-you-being-serious faces”.

“Nein, I’m joking.” It was seriously like he could read my mind because, really, my faces weren’t that obvious.

“I’ll pop into town in the morning or something and get some.”

“I thought you didn’t have any money?”

“Oh, shit, yeah.”

“I can give you some.”

“What, knickers or money?” I winked at him “Why are we discussing my knickers anyway?” I laughed but I could feel myself turning beetroot red again.

“Because he wants to get in them.” A voice said from behind me. I turned around.

“What do you want now, Ash?” And how did you get in? I thought we weren’t on speaking terms.”

“Get in what?” she said raising her eyebrows at me

“The room. Stop being childish.” I walked up to her and tried to push her towards the door but it didn’t work “No, seriously, Ash, what do you want?”

“Just came to see how you were doing that’s all. Not even allowed to check how my best friend and her boyfriend are anymore, without having a reason?”

“Boyfriend?” me and Bill said in sync

“Getting a bit ahead of yourself there aren’t you Ashley?” Bill said. I turned around and he was as pink as Ashley’s knickers which you could see because her trousers were practically half way down her thighs which was disgusting.

“Yeah, well, whatever. I’ll leave you to get up to your “business” now.” She winked at me as she turned to walk through the door

“Ash,” I shouted down the corridor after her. She turned around “Grow up, seriously.”

She narrowed her eyes at me.

I wondered what had come over me. I would never be this confident in front of Ashley usually.

“What’s wrong with you? You never stand up to me and all of a sudden you are. Just trying to act big in front of Bill aren’t you? Yeah, well whatever I don’t need you as a friend if you’re going to act like that” She shouted back at me. She’d said exactly what I was thinking except that I wasn’t trying to impress Bill; he just gave me this huge confidence boost. And “if you’re going to act like that” WHAT?! It was exactly how she’d acted all the time. I hated that about her too; she was so hypocritical.

“That girl has a serious attitude problem!” Bill said as I shut the door after me.

“I know.” I said, rolling my eyes “You’re lucky you don’t have to see her every day.”

He sat down on the bed, next to me and put his arm around me.

“Thank you,” He whispered.

“For what?” I looked up at him.

“Today. It was amazing. Usually if I spend even 10 minutes with a fan they turn out to be complete twats; they’re like leeches.” I was shocked. I thought he loved his fans. “I do love them because I wouldn’t be in this position without them but, I don’t know. Most of them seem so…fake.”

 I wanted to change the subject in case he started commenting on Ashley’s fakeness. I knew she was fake myself but I just didn’t want to start slagging her off so I stood up and walked over to the TV. “Is it okay if I put this on?”

“It’s fine with me.” He said as he lay down. I went and sat on the edge of the bed in front of him. He tugged on my t-shirt. “I can’t see!” He said and laughed.

“Sorry.” I said and lay down next to him. My mum would absolutely murder me if she could see me.

“Go in the fridge and I think there’s some drink in there, if you want one.”

“No, thanks.” I didn’t particularly like drinking because my mum used to be an alcoholic. “Do you want me to get you one?”

“Please. You should have one. It is your birthday after all. You’ve got to celebrate it properly somehow.”

I want an opinion on these.

I'm not sure about them :/

I’ve decided you’re not worth my tears no more

I can’t be doing with it

Save it for her, you know you’re getting stronger

You keep on thinking that, baby

It’s just to get at me, I can see

You had time to make up your mind

I gave you it

You took advantage

Of me and her

You were my heroin

My addictive little trip

My escape to our fantasy

You’re smaller than I thought you were

Everyone said you were like the way you turned out to be

I know I should’ve listened

I thought you were different

You wanted me

And vice versa

Then I realised

You’re gonna be the same

You were my heroin

My addictive little trip

My escape to our fantasy

My Heroin

My Trip

My Addiction

My Escape

Her jealousy

Your desperation

“What!?” Ashley was shouting at Bill. “That makes absolutely no sense. There are three of us and four of you and it’s two to a room.”

“She’s right. One of us is going to have to sleep on their own.” James said pointing his finger at himself, Ash and me. 

“No, you didn’t give me a proper chance to explain-” Bill said to them.

“Well, go on then. We’re waiting.” Ashley said with her hand on her hip.

I hated her when she was like this.

“If you give me a chance,” Bill said mocking her tone. “Tom always has his own room-“

“But one of us will have to sleep separate.” Ashley interrupted again.

“Stop interrupting me and I’ll tell you.” I could see he was getting annoyed with her. And I think I knew what he was getting at. He wanted me to share a room with him.

“Bill, we only have two single bed rooms. The other two are double beds and I’m not sharing a bed with Georg.” Gustav said looking at the card he’d just been given by reception. “Tom will probably want a double bed room so that leaves one single bed room and a double bed room.” He said looking up from the card.

“Dibs on the single bed room!” Ashley shouted with her hand in the air. I think she knew what Bill was getting at too. I glared at her. “Oh, please, Adalia, as if you’re actually bothered about sharing a bed with him.” She said looking Bill up and down.

I looked up at Bill. He’d gone pink in the cheeks.

“Excuse us a minute.” Ashley said talking to the group while pulling me towards the toilets.

“What the hell do you think you’re playing at, Ash?” I asked her.

“Shut up. Like I said, as if you’re bothered about spending the night with Bill.”

“That’s not the point. It’s like jumping into bed with a stranger. We only met today.”

“Me and Tom haven’t even properly met but I’d still jump into bed with him.”

“That’s different.”

“How?”

“Because you’re totally different people to me and Bill.”

“Shut up, Adalia.” She said shaking her head and turning to walk back

“No, you are!” I grabbed her arm and turned her back around. “I’ve taken enough of your shit over the years to be honest. I’ve let you get away with murder! Well, not any more. You don’t mind sharing a bed with James. You’re best friends for god’s sake. Ok, I don’t mind sharing a room with Bill, but a bed is pushing it.”

“Look on the bright side, when people ask you who you lost your virginity to you can say Bill Kaulitz.” She winked at me. She wasn’t getting the point at all. “And what do you mean we’re different people to you and Bill? Bill and Tom are twins.”

“Yeah, but Bill’s not trying to jump into bed with every girl that wants to with him.” I mumbled

“What and I am with every boy?” She was practically shouting now.

“I didn’t say that.”

“You didn’t have to, love.” She walked off.

I took a huge breath as Bill walked over. “What was that all about?”

“Doesn’t matter.”

“Ok, I’m sorry about the rooms by the way.”

“It’s fine. I don’t mind sharing with you it’s just that I haven’t exactly known you for that long and it just feels weird.”

“I feel the same too, but we can’t exactly make Georg and Gustav share can we?”

“I know but James and Ash can. I don’t want to get into another argument though so I’ll just leave it like that.”

He gave me a little sideways smile.

“I love you so much.” He said to me.

“I love you too.” I said. I knew I didn’t mean it as much as I’d liked to have done. I smiled at him, took his hand and walked back over to the group. James was now arguing with Ash.

“But she’s got a fair point, Ash!” James could see where I was coming from, that was one of the things I loved about him. She stuck her tongue out at him. I hated her childish behaviour. She’d always been childish, especially when she couldn’t have her own way. “Ashley, you can’t make her share a bed with someone that she’s just met, that’s all I’m saying.” I don’t think they realised that me and Bill were standing behind them.

“Well, you share with her then.” Ash said to him

“And you’re going to share with Bill?”

She looked at him, confused.

“I didn’t think so.” He said to her.

“No what I meant was; you and Adalia share and then I’ll go share with Tom, Bill has his own bed and everybody’s happy. And a bonus for you; you get to be Ad’s first.” She gave him this huge cheesy grin.

“Is that all you think about? And you know I don’t like her in that way, Ashley. I like you.”

“Well, who doesn’t like me?” She said tossing her hair over her shoulder.

“I’m sorry, I’m sorry, I’m sorry.” Bill kept apologizing to Tom.

“Yeah, alright I get it. I’d just appreciate it if you didn’t dawdle so much in future.” Tom said to him while flicking through a magazine.

“I don’t dawdle!”

“Whatever.”

“I can’t not give them autographs; you never know how long they’ve been waiting there.” Bill said to him. It was uncanny; the resemblance from when Tom had impersonated Bill saying the exact same words. Tom gave me a little glance and I burst out laughing. “What are you laughing at?”

“Nothing.” I said to Bill with a huge grin spread across my face.

“Are you ticklish?” Bill asked me

“Extremely. Why?”

“Because if you don’t tell me what you were laughing at, I will tickle you until you do tell me.” He had his hands raised as if it was a threat.

“Oooh, scared much?”

“You should be!” He said and started tickling me. He had this gigantic smile across his face which gave me butterflies to look at. The bus stopped outside the hotel but that didn’t stop Bill.

“Ok, ok. I’ll tell you!” I lied. He took his hands off me and I jumped off his bed and ran towards the door.

“Oi, did I say you could move?” he said as he stood behind me.

“You didn’t say I couldn’t” I smiled at him. He pulled me backwards into a hug.

“I love you” he whispered in my ear. I loved him too but for some reason I couldn’t say it. It felt weird to say. I’d only known him a day and I hated to rush into relationships. I’d rushed into my last one without knowing the boy properly. After all, all I knew of Bill was what the media told us and what I’d learnt today. The door started to open and again, this huge sound wave of screaming girls hit us. “I’ll go first and then you follow, ok? Tom will be behind you.”

I nodded at him. He took hold of my hand and helped me down the bus steps. This crowd was bigger than the one outside the shopping centre. Gustav handed me a pair of sunglasses. I wasn’t sure what they were for but I put them on anyway.

We got to the hotel, eventually and I felt like that had taken a week to push through those people. I think the sunglasses were to protect my eyes from the camera flashes.

“Are you okay?” Bill asked me

“Yeah, thanks.” I looked everywhere for Ashley and James but I couldn’t see them so I took my phone out of my pocket and called Ashley.

“Ash, where are you?”

“We’re in the seating area, where are you?”

“Reception area. You come here.”

“Ok, see you in a minute”

“Where are they?” Bill asked.

Sorry that I havn't updated you on the story in a while

I've been focusing on passing my GCSE's and I've had loads of coursework.

Also got a bad case of writer's block atm.

The next part should be up this weekend (hopefully)

I've got 3 pieces of coursework to do and I've got a German GCSE to pass on the 6th.

Wish me luck (;

Again, I'm sorry.

xxxxx

“Ready?” Bill asked me. Me, Bill and the rest of Tokio Hotel and their managers and roadies were all standing by the back stage door, waiting to go out. I was scared of all the flashing lights and screaming girls that there was going to be outside these doors. I felt myself start to shake with panic. Bill squeezed my hand tighter. “I’ve got you and I’ll never let you go” he said to me and kissed my hand. I wasn’t really sure what he meant by that. Whether it was just to the bus or whether it was forever, I wasn’t sure. His words didn’t reassure me much though. They were still going to be there. “Just focus on the bus and you’ll be there quicker than you think.” These words reassured me a bit. The doors opened and a huge wave of sound; screaming, shouting and even some crying hit us.

“Focus on the bus, focus on the bus” I kept saying to myself but at first I couldn’t see the bus, then it pulled up right in front of us. About 7 metres away from the backstage doors. “Focus on the bus” I tried to walk as fast as I could but Bill kept stopping every now and again to sign autographs. I could’ve carried on walking seeing as he let go of my hand when he did this but I was scared, he was like the person that protected me from all evil like a god would. Or even a guardian angel ♥.

Of course I felt jealous of Bill giving these girls his full attention. I felt like I wasn’t even there until Tom put his hand around my waist and took me to the bus. I kept looking back to see if Bill was coming any faster, but he wasn’t. He was still signing autographs.

“Sit down there” Tom said to me, pointing to a bunk bed. “Bill will be here in a minute.”

“Is he always like that?” I asked Tom

“Sorry, but I can’t allow him in without this pass being signed by the whole band!” The security guard had told Bill this several times now but he just wouldn’t listen.

“But it shouldn’t need to be! I’ve said he can come in.” Bill argued with the security guard. We found out his name was Al. Al was about 6’6”, only 3 inches taller than Bill, but Bill still looked tiny standing in front of him. Al also looked really intimidating the way he was kind of standing over Bill. He was bald and his head was really shiny, it reflected the blue stage light which made me laugh to myself. He was quite big, weight-wise but he had huge muscles, which made him look even more intimidating next to Bill.

“I’m not going to tell you again. It needs to be signed by the whole band.”

“Fine.” Bill said aggressively. I’d never seen him with a temper before. He turned to look at us. “James and Ashley, do you know where the King’s Hotel is?”

“The big blue one, near the train station?” Ashley asked him.

“Yeah, that’s the one. Meet me and Adalia there, ok?”

“But why?”

“Well, you’ve missed your train now, so you’ll have to stay in Birmingham overnight, won’t you?”

I was really confused. Had he planned this entire thing out? He knew we didn’t have any money to stay in a hotel overnight because I’d told him we only had £10 left between us.

“But we don’t have enough money to stay in a hotel, Bill. Especially not that one, it’s really expensive.” I said to him.

“It’s not, it’s actually quite cheap.” James said to me

“Anyway, I’ll explain everything when we all get there, babe.” Bill said to me. I loved the fact that he was calling me “babe” but I hated it at the same time. I loved it because I loved him, but I hated it because I had feelings for James and I didn’t know which one of them I wanted. I knew a relationship with James would be easier; I wouldn’t get followed by paparazzi, every inch of my life wouldn’t be in the press and what about when Tokio Hotel were on tour? Or back in Germany even? I wouldn’t see Bill as much as I would James. On the other hand, I didn’t know whether James liked me in that way.

“Ok, I trust you Bill” I smiled at him. I know that I’d only just met him and it was wrong to trust someone straight away, but I felt like I’d known him much longer. He made me feel special, he’d never (not yet anyway) put me down. James always put me down, about the clothes I wore and my make-up, but I didn’t know whether that was what boys did when they fancied you. It always said in magazines “If a boy teases you, he has strong feelings for you” but I think they were to make you feel better about yourself or give you more self-confidence. They were those crappy teen magazines that give you idiotic advice on growing up and just stereotype all teenage girls.

Bill smiled back at me. His smile gave me butterflies, it was so sweet.

“Ok…” Ashley said rolling her eyes. “Meet you there then, yeah?”

“Yeah.” I said to her. I hugged her and James and walked back to Bill’s dressing room with him. I felt so guilty leaving them to walk on their own, in Birmingham, at this time of night. It was 11.00pm by now

Writer: I know it's been a while but that's because my journal was playing up and wouldn't let me post anything

“Passes, please?” he asked us. I thought he was going to be mean about it considering his size but he was surprisingly nice as we handed him the passes. “You two can go through but you can’t” he said pointing at James. “This one hasn’t been signed by the band and looks like a photocopy.” Ash and I looked at each other, confused.

“But Bill gave me these!” I said to him.

“I’m sorry, who?” He said. He didn’t have a clue who I was on about.

“Bill, the lead singer, Duh!” Ashley said trying to making out that the security guard was a bit thick. I nudged her and it was quite hard too. “Ouch!” she said to me.

“Can we just go and get him? And he’ll tell you that he gave us the passes.” I asked the security guard.

“Right, but this boy and “duhhh” girl stays here.”

“Wha?” Ashley said.

“Ok, fine.” I said to him.

“But my pass is fine, you said” She said to him

“Yeah, but your attitude aint.” He said to her.

I walked off, well; it was more of a run. I knocked on Bill’s door three times, just like he’d told me to but there was no answer. I ran down to the green room, he wasn’t in there but Tom and Georg were so I asked them if they’d seen him.

“Yeah he’s in his dressing room.” Tom said.

“No, he’s not.” I said back to him.

“He is.” Georg said, nodding his head.

I didn’t want to argue with either of them so I said “Thanks” and walked back up the corridor to Bill’s dressing room. I wasn’t looking where I was going because I was texting Ash to tell her I didn’t know where Bill was when I walked into him. “Scheisse, Adalia, watch where you’re going.” He said laughing.

“Sorry. I need you to come with me, they won’t let James in. Apparently there’s a problem with his pass or something.” I explained to him.

“Okay, I’ll be there in a minute. I just need to take something to my dressing room.”

“No, that can wait. This is important.” I said taking his hand.

“Alright, alright. I’m coming!”

Writer: I know it's really short, I'm sorry.

I guessed I was going to have bruises between my stomach and my chest from where I was getting pushed against the barrier. On James the barrier came up to about his belly button. He was a lot taller than I was, for I was really short; 5’2” to be exact. I was the shortest person in my year. I wasn’t ashamed of it though. I liked being short. The only bad thing about it was that Bill was a foot taller than me, which was quite weird. Half an hour after, Tokio Hotel came onstage. That was one of the most painful half hours of my life! I knew it was going to get worse though because Bill would reach out to the crowd like he usually did and all the girls behind me would try and grab his hand. They played two songs “Love is dead” and “Ready, Set, Go!” before Bill shouted “Hello Birmingham!”

I think every single girl around me screamed as loud as they could. I felt like screaming but if I did I’d be ashamed of myself, I hated teenie fans. Mind you, I was being a bit hypocritical; I was the one that fainted in front of him, after all.  I could see him looking in the front row, I wasn’t sure whether he was looking for me or not. “Wave at him!” James said as he poked my shoulder “He can’t see you!”

I lifted my arm that was trapped between me and the barrier and sort of half-waved. It was “more like a flick of the wrist” according to James. So I waved again. He must’ve seen that because he smiled at me. I think the girl behind me thought he was smiling at her though because she shouted really loud (in my ear) “I LOVE YOU BILL!”

“The next song we’re going to play is called “Sacred” and it from me is dedicated to a very special birthday girl I today met” he said into his microphone, while looking at me. I couldn’t tell whether I’d gone red or not because it was so damn hot in there. They played “Sacred” then he said “Birmingham, I want you all to sing Happy Birthday to Adalia with me!” Of course they all did as they were told even though they didn’t have the slightest clue who I was. He thanked them and said “Birmingham, I want to hear you Scream It Out Loud!” and they played “Scream”. Every time it got to the bit where he goes “Scream!” he held the microphone out to the audience because he wanted us to shout “Scream!”. They finished their set and encore with him speaking a bit in between every other song. After “Break Away” which was the last song, Bill tapped his chest as if there should be a necklace there. Then I realised what he was doing, he was asking me where the passes were. I pointed at my back which was on my wrist, hanging over the barrier so that some crazy fan girl didn’t try and steal it. He nodded at me then mouthed the words “Show the security guard” and pointed at a bald headed man wearing a dark blue jacket “and climb over the barrier”

I mouthed “Ok” back at him as Tokio Hotel all stepped forward to take a bow. “Thank you so much! You’ve been amazing tonight” Bill said into his microphone with a huge smile on his face and they ran offstage. I beckoned to Ashley. I knew we were going to have to be quick doing this because Tokio Hotel wanted to leave pretty quickly so that they didn’t get mobbed on their way out. James had seen what Bill had said so I didn’t need to explain to him. Ashley eventually got to us after pushing past a few emo wannabe’s. “MOVE!” She was shouting at them. They were just giving her dirty looks. We showed the security man our passes and he nodded at us. James and Ashley climbed over but I couldn’t. I was too short. They grabbed my arms and heaved me over. I landed with a smack on the floor and James and Ashley were just laughing. “Yeah thanks guys.” I said to them, not too impressed. The smack caused a few fans to turn around. “Oh my god, they’re going over the barrier!” one of them said. I stood up and looked at Ashley, scared. “Run!” she shouted at us. Although we got stopped pretty quickly as we literally ran into a huge security guard.

Writer: I hope you don't mind long stories cuz this is gonna be pretty long. And You get an update really quick for this part cuz I felt bad about leaving it so long before updating you; I had so much coursework. I'm sorry. And thanks for all the amazing comments you've been leaving too (: They make me smile :P

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He took us down the corridor and into the main hall. There was no-one in there apart from the four of us. “Stand wherever you want!” he said to us. “The stage isn’t as big as we’re used to. We’re used to big arena stages now and this is about quarter of the size but it should do.” He looked disappointed but smiled anyway. “I usually stand in the centre but move all over the place” he looked at me and winked. I just laughed. I think it was more of a nervous laugh though. Bill Kaulitz was winking at me! He’d been doing this all day but I’d only just realised it now. It was so surreal. Something like this could only happen in a dream. Except it wasn’t a dream. I pinched myself to check that it was real. “Ouch! That hurt” I said rubbing my arm. They all looked at me weirdly. I smiled and they laughed.

“Where does Tom usually stand?” Ashley asked Bill.

“On your left”

“Oh no you don’t. You’re standing next to me, Ash.” I said to her.

She sighed “But why?”

“It’s my birthday!”

“It’s my once in a lifetime chance!”

“Fine!” I said. I couldn’t argue with her for more than five minutes. But I suppose I let her get away with anything. I really couldn’t stand up for myself.

“Does that mean I have to go and stand in front of Georg?” James asked jokingly.

“No, you’re standing with me.” I said to him. Giving him a death stare so that he wouldn’t change his mind.

“Ok, I’ve gotta go now babe. I’ll see you after the gig?”

“Yeah sure” I replied to him. James and Ash were raising their eyebrows at the fact that he’d just called me babe.

“Oh, and keep those passes safe!” he said to me as he kissed me on the forehead and walked back backstage.

James and Ashley’s jaws dropped.

“OH MY GOD!” Ashley shouted at me.

I was so overwhelmed that all noise was blocked out of my ears. I had butterflies in my stomach and my legs had gone jelly-like. I tried to change the subject to stop me blushing even more than I already was. “Ok, the doors should open in about-“ I was interrupted by a crowd of screaming girls hurtling themselves toward us. It looked like one of those big tidal waves you get at the beach. Me, James and Ashley gripped onto the barrier for dear life. We knew we were going to be pushed around and we also knew a few people were going to try and pull us away from the barrier so that they could get closer to the band. But by now they couldn’t do much because security was already standing in front of us.

“I’m gonna get crushed by a load of screaming girls” James said to me, trying to sound horrified but he had that slight smirk on his face.

I handed Bill my mobile and he called Ashley.

“Hello?”

“Hey, Ashley. It’s Bill.”

“Oh, Hi.”

“This is what I need you and James to do now.”

“Ok”

“Go around to the back door and Adalia will meet you there and she will give you both backstage passes so you can get past security ok?” I loved the way he said my name. It made me smile. It was so sweet.

“Yeah”

“And then I’ll take you into the main hall before the doors open in ten minutes get it?”

“Got it. See you in a minute.”

“See you.”

Bill put the phone down and handed me three passes that were on his dressing table that had been signed by the whole band. It made me think to myself whether they knew this was going to happen. He looked at me and could see I was baffled by the whole thing. “Don’t worry. Each of us always has one. I nicked one off Georg and one off Gustav, Tom had given his to some girl that he’d met.” He rolled his eyes. He guided me through the corridor and said “When you come back knock on my door three times.” I nodded as he guided me through the green room where Tom and Georg were sitting. They gave me a weird look and Bill said “This is Adalia. It’s her birthday” It was almost as if he was hiding me away from them. He smiled and carried on walking, holding my hand. He didn’t even give us a chance to say hi to each other. We reached the backstage door and he said “Sorry about that, you know what Tom’s like with girls” and laughed

“He’ll still be like that on the way back through” I laughed too.

“Yeah, but then you’ll have Ashley with you to distract him”

He opened the door which was a fire exit door so it was easy to open anyway. But I loved men like that; polite. “Ok they’re not here yet but wait here. I have to go and do my hair.”

I nodded at him. Less than a minute later James and Ashley appeared by the door.

“Adalia. We lost you!” James said and hugged me.

“I know. I’m sorry.” I said to them both as I handed them their passes. “Oh and when we go in Ash, walk straight past Tom, Ok? We haven’t got time to start talking to be honest.”

We got to the academy without any hassle at all except for the odd autograph hunter or crazy fan. The paparazzi must have given up or got all the pictures they wanted. I was dreading the next issue of whatever they were taking pictures for. Why? Because in some of them Bill had his hands round my waist and some of them he was holding my hand. It wasn’t bad for me; I mean the man of my dreams was holding my hand and his hands around my waist. But for attention at school, it was bad. Very bad. And what if they think I’m his girlfriend? Like he said I could be followed everywhere by paparazzi. I mean, after today I might not ever see him again. We were just about to walk through the backstage door when he turned and said “Are you alright? You look like a ghost.”

“Huh? Oh, no I’m fine.” I tried to smile but I just felt sick.

“You don’t need to worry, they’re not nasty people.”

Then I realised where we were going. I was going to meet Tokio Hotel! I could feel myself tensing up and trying to resist going inside. I don’t even know why. I’d met the person I was most nervous about meeting. He took my hand and squeezed it as if to reassure me. “Ok?” He asked.

“Yeah.” I wasn’t in the slightest. I honestly felt like I was going to be sick.

He led me into the greenroom. No-one was in there. Bill looked confused. “They’re usually in here.” He looked down at his t-shirt “I need to get changed” He took me into his dressing room and made me sit down by his dressing table. “Two seconds, ok?”

“Fine” I smiled at him. I was dreading that one of the boys would walk in while Bill was in the bathroom because I didn’t have a clue what to say to them if they asked who I was or why I was here.

NOW, I know what he told me to brace myself for. There was flashes going off everywhere and people shoving microphones in his face. I kept turning around to see where James and Ashley were but I couldn’t see them. “Don’t turn around” Bill kept telling me. He was holding my hand so tight I thought my veins were going to burst and pulling me through the crowds of cameras. We got through the crowd and started running down a hill and into a gap in between two houses. By now, I had absolutely no idea where James or Ashley were, I just hoped they were together. “Are you okay?” Bill asked me.

“I am now. Do you get that every day?”

“Yeah but it’s not as bad over here as it is in Europe. That’s one of the reason’s I haven’t had a girlfriend for years; she wouldn’t be able to handle it every single day. It would happen overnight, literally. I’m used to it now because I’ve had it since I was 13”

I felt so sorry for him. In Europe every thing he did was in magazines, on the news or in the newspapers. It was like his life was monitored by the paparazzi. There was a silence.

“What do you mean she wouldn’t be able to handle it?” I asked him. I knew exactly what he meant but I just didn’t like the silence.

“Well, her life would be normal one day and then the next she’d be followed by paparazzi everywhere and rumours in every magazine.” He sighed.

Maybe I didn’t then… “I’d be able to handle it… If I had you I’d be able to handle anything.” I muttered under my breath

“What?” He asked.

“Nothing, talking to myself.” I smiled at him.

“First sign of madness…” He winked at me.

“Only if you get an answer back” I laughed. He laughed too. I was surprised at how much English he could actually speak. “I think I should phone James to see where he is.”

“I was going to suggest that.”

I took my phone out of my jeans pocket. I could see Bill looking at my waist. “What?” I said.

“I like your belt” he said and showed me his. They were the same. We both smiled. I called James.

“Hello?” He answered

“James, where are you?”

“I was going to ask you the same thing! Thanks for leaving us back there!”

“I didn’t leave you! I got pulled through the crowd” I glared at Bill in a joking around way. He raised an eyebrow at me. I raised one back.

“Well, whatever…like you said, today shouldn’t be about arguing. Where are you?”

“I have no idea. Where are you?”

“Outside McDonalds, making our way up to the academy. Are you with Bill?”

“I am. Hang on…” I covered the speaker and asked Bill where we should meet them. “He said go up to the academy and when we get there we’ll tell you what to do. He said we’re guaranteed first row or something”

“But we’re not going to be anywhere near first row at this rate!”

“Just do it! Speak to you in a bit.”

“Byee.”

Bill’s phone started ringing. I have no idea what he was saying because obviously it was a conversation in German but I could hear the voice on the other end vaguely. It was Tom. They were arguing. I could pick out bits of it and vaguely had an idea of what they were arguing about. Bill put the phone down.

“Sorry about that. Did you understand it?”

“No.” I couldn’t lie to him “Bits of it.”

“Oh right. It was Tom wondering where I was. I think we should go back now. Doors open in half an hour.”  

The next thing I remember was being on the floor with Ashley, James and Bill crowding around me. Ashley was fanning my face with a magazine she’d got off the rack. I’d fainted.

“Adalia you gave us a shock!” James said as I stood up.

“Are you okay?” Ashley asked.

“Yeah, my head hurts though.”

They all laughed. I didn’t get it but laughed along anyway. I felt so embarrassed.

I must have been blushing because Bill said “Don’t worry. I get it all the time.” And smiled at me. I smiled back. “Oh and Happy Birthday by the way.” He said to me then he hugged me. I felt like I was going to pass out again. I think James thought I was aswell because he stood behind me almost as if he was ready to catch me.

“5.00!! We really should go queue by the academy now.” I said to Ashley and James. Of course I didn’t want to leave Bill. I mean, I’d only just met him. I wanted to at least speak to him for a bit.

“Which row are you in?” He asked me. I shrugged. “Let me see your tickets” I handed him the tickets “First row?! You won’t get into the first row now if you go and queue.”

“Wirklich?” Ashley said, trying to make a good impression I said. “Wirklich” means “Really” in German. He looked at her and raised an eyebrow. “Hey Adalia, he does that thing you do with your eyebrow!” I blushed. In my head I was saying “Change the subject, change the subject”

“Anyway…we really won’t get into the first row now?” She asked. It was like she could read my mind.

“Nein, nicht jetzt, sowieso” Bill said to her. He knew she couldn’t speak German. I knew that that meant “No, not now, anyway”. She tried to raise an eyebrow but it didn’t work. He looked at me and we both laughed. I think he somehow knew that I could speak a bit of German. “Ich habe einen idee” he said to me. He took my hand and beckoned the James and Ashley to follow him. We walked out of the North shopping centre and he turned to me and said “Brace yourself” I had no idea what I had to brace myself for but I did anyway. And so did James and Ashley even though he wasn’t talking to them.

It was Bill Kaulitz!

“For the first time in her life she’s speechless” James said to Ashley.

“Adalia!” she pinched me. “Go and say something to him!”

“I don’t know what to say to him!” I snapped at her.

“Right, follow me.” She said taking my hand. I resisted. Clinging onto the shop wall.

“ADALIA!” James shouted at me; I’d bitten him because he was trying to prise my fingers off the wall.

Eventually they managed to though.

“I don’t want to go!” I was telling them. I wasn’t sure if the tears in my eyes were because I was nervous, because they’d just bent all of my fingers back or whether it was just because that was my hero standing less than a few metres away from me. “I’m not even wearing any make-up!”

“Of course you want to go.” Ashley said looking me in the eyes. She wiped my tears away and whipped her eyeliner out of her pocket. She drew a thick black line on my eyelid. “Now you have. Look, don’t worry. You know he’s a nice guy.” She took my hand again and led me to him. This time I came easier, her words were so reassuring. She always seemed to make everything okay, that’s why we’d never fallen out (or if we had, it wasn’t for more than 2 minutes.)

“Hey, Bill, my name’s Ashley. Sorry to disturb you while you’re shopping, it’s just that Adalia, here” she pushed me forward so that I was now in front of her “is a huge fan and it’s her birthday today, we’re also going to your concert after.”

I wasn’t sure if he could understand her because she was speaking so fast and wasn’t sure how much English he actually spoke. “I mean not that I’m not a huge fan, I am, just that she’s a bigger fan”

He looked at me. Oh god.

Writer: Sorry, I know it's really short :/

We arrived in Birmingham at 11.45.

“Shall we go and get something to eat?” Ashley suggested.

“Yeah, then what?” James said.

“We’ll let Adalia decide; it is her birthday after all.”

“Erm…it’ll be about 12.30 when we finish eating, yeah?” I asked

“About that, yeah.” Ashley replied.

“So, we could go and look around the shops for a bit.”

James moaned.

“Shut up James” Ashley said slapping him on the back of the head.

“I don’t want to go to the shops!” He shouted at Ashley.

“Guys! Don’t argue it’